Saturday, March 31, 2012

My Choice

I don't buy updated clothes and shoes. I'll wear whatever is in my closet.
I prefer to get married on a mass wedding. It's ok if I don't get engagement ring or my dream wedding.
Luxury for me means buying Human Heart Nature toiletries or affordable make up to go with the collection I intend to gain profit from; having the time to do a completely DIY mani, pedi, hotoil, wax, and facial --not all at the same time and usually, once in a blue moon; attending medical check ups when any of us are sick and buying everything from the doctor's prescription.
I don't sport an expensive drink or ice cream.
I don't spend Christmas money on gifts and gadgets.
We don't frequently go to the movies or an expensive vacation out of town. Weekend family mall trips and grocery is the best we can have at the moment.
We didn't want to risk paying a huge amount monthly for a brand new car. Same reason we haven't bought a house yet.
I can't quit work to study or follow my passion of make-up artistry.

I may be working with a relatively bigger than average salary. I may have a husband who earns about the same thing. On the other hand, there's the rent, electricity, water, cable tv, internet and phone bills. Ella is already in school, I can't even enroll her to a school I think is best. Nor be there to tutor her in this early stage of her academic development.

Back in the day, I dreamed waay bigger than the state I currently am. Life is tough. I stumbled and even though I was able to get up, I'm crippled. I want to dream big again...At least, make sure that my kids get a better shot at life than I did and bessy and I get a problem-free retirement. Because of this, I make sure all extra money go to a home fund, a pension plan and a passbook. So when you see me wearing lint covered washed up clothes, having no ring on my finger, having the same chipped nail polish on my nails for several consecutive weeks, drinking free coffee from the office, not owning anything from Apple, not posting weekend getaways on Facebook, living in different houses every so often, and offering free make up sessions to practice what I've learned from Youtube...don't pity me. Just please respect the choices that I make because these are all part of a great plan.

your every woman,